U.S. Army Enlistment - Future Notice
I may be depressed in my own accord, but I've made up my mind. I've talked to many, & have realized that to what keeps me going is my own Concoction, & my own Contengency to be someone who can connect People closer to Time to the Living, not to Space, & all I've been booked with are disorderly who don't shape my views, & either criticize me for caring, or show me for no equal value to why I care. So as simple as that, I am making my own mind today to go about an easy way out. I actually do want to solidify myself to the U.S. Army to formalize a way into a better livelihood for someone who can admire my efforts, my faith, fruition, & skills. I want to actually be of use to someone & be of use to anyone who can be wanting to know the Real Me, "implying" I want to someone to understand my livelihood to accept me as a Person who cares to & for that significant other. From who've I've met, never showed me that, & from where I stand today, I value no further option but to try. I want to make Peace with myself to say that I can be put on display to see myself as someone who can go to greater possible heights than to let emotional, or astral vampires get the better of me. I want to dumb-down my amplifications to get to some place in life that can allow me to be seen as someone who can be said clear than done.
I want to be a Person to be seen to an open-hug. Not to an Online excuse for someone's boredom & crouched daily cry to the blame they conspire that doesn't want me around. Should they be friends; they, be not. There's no one here that truly cares to want my love. Support a hug to my life, & bring fruition to my happiness. What I want to do next, is provide an enlightenment for this Country to see someone worth the effort. Someone who can take matters into his own hand to help out the World, not surrender it. I want People to set my example to inherit a new future, & provide excellency to begin a plan to confound the right to swear they can make it possible for their Families & Friends. If I should die in the Military, I don't mind. I've seen enough horrors that can drive my future wild to determine engine outputs at maximum.
I am a smart & intelligent person, & should I make use of my Web Design Services to the U.S. Military, I want to provide an answer to help ensue lives to get to where I want to go in this life. I want to be seen as someone who can blanket sorrow into God's Light as it should be, not to enrage hatred or cause spaces, but understand that the worth I can lay onto others can be applied to a coming person that from what I know now will blush, talk, text back, phone me, maybe even ask me out, as I would gladly accept the offer, just to render myself to a position that I can mean something to someone at a level that outskirts this one. That is why I want to change my predictability amongst things, to use my skills & efforts to much GREATER possibilities. I want to get myself to a grand-scheme of things to feel like my life can become complacent enough to understand that from my life's choosing, to who I've left behind, to who showed me trust, & who showed me mistrust, I want to detach myself from those individuals' who distrusted me, to see me as someone different for the inevitable chooser, should they see that my intentions are not for them, but for myself, my life, my family, my actual friends; all - to better myself for a chance to prove renewal to myself.
I can't change fate. I can't even heal sorrow, or to how much I care about someone never often shows to those who I've admired in the past to know that things are happening that have brought me to this position; should I bear witness to this resolve, I've made up my mind. This is my choice. No one else's. So from where I stand, or to what I want my Future invokes upon. I want to bring meaning to those that DO WANT IT. Not to those that don't. To those that do. Guaranteed, if I should try, I will try & do. And die trying. My Autography, begins today. I won't back out to assumable delusions, or to People who wasted my Time trying to make me be seen as someone hurtful to someone who struggles to empathize. I am not their twisted dementia for treachery & games. From from where I stand, I would rather marry a Straight Woman, not a twist of Bisexuality, or a non-binary that signifies behavior problems. I am a Male, and I know how to operate to unfold many ideas to solutions.
Should this be choice. It is. I've already made up my Mind.